۩۞۩ThE・LeGenD・oƒ・uLtiMäTE・❤ĦeROiNe۩۞۩

2007-07-29T21:24:00.000+09:00

Dono Jahan Teri Muhabbat Main Haar Kay
Wo Jaraha Hay Koi Shab-e-Gham Guzar Kay
Duniya Nay Teri Yaad Say Begana Kar Diya
Tujh Say Bhi Dilfaraib Hain Gham Rozgaar Kay

Faiz A Faiz.

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I laughed at people still in love

2007-07-29T20:10:00.000+09:00

I thought I must give up on life
And turn into a stone;
The desert wind quite suited me:
No heart, no mind–just bone.
I thought it would be dumb to try
To want something again;
Wanting turns to need, and then
Transmogrifies to pain.

I laughed at people still in love
Who trusted someone’s word;
To make my happiness depend
On faith seemed quite absurd.

I lay alone and wonder-struck,
Sleepless in my bed,
Still numb, still dumb, still ice, ice cold,
Not knowing I was dead.

And then you came and shone upon
My meadow full of snow,
And saw the flowers only love
Could recognize and grow;

And made me feel so beautiful
I shed my cold, cold skin,
And opened up my heart to you,
And, fearful, let you in.

And now, my dear, I am in love,
With all that I’ve been through.
I know the worst of all the world,
And I believe in you

-Rumi-

2007-02-18T04:13:00.000+09:00

Yes, there are sighs, and
Yes, there are smiles, and
Yes, there are things,
Said and unsaid with a single glance,
And there are the smells,
On skin and pillowcases,
And hairs in sinks and drains
Then there is the glow and the afterglow,
The afterlife of deaths, small,
Little and sometimes very big

Those melodies suddenly make sense now
Rustling leaves in the howling midnight wind,
Sunshine, and the sound it makes when it touches your skin,
The touch of searching hands,
Seeking to understand whatever mystery hides

There are reasons for this, beyond reason
And I was always lazy, so I give in
Because this is a warm safe place
Yes, yes, raindrops keep falling on my head
But that's because I left the window open
And I like the raindrops, they're soothing

To tell the truth,
I was never that significant to start with
But there will be the silly things
And the little tiffs thereof;
The mood swings and the days of very biting reality
But like all things, they'll come and go,
and flow away in a solitary love-bite
And all will be forgiven,
And all will be forgotten,
All in the soothing- your soothing
I think too much, I know, but...

My arm is dead, but
Still I'll keep it there where it is,
Just behind your head
Because like this, just like this,
These are the moments I'll treasure..

2007-02-18T04:05:00.000+09:00

Before the witching hour, when midnight comes
Before time starts again and the moment dies
Before the bells toll their death knells for lost souls
Before the cold comes and wraps us both
Before I remember the things I'm forgetting now
Before I relearn my lines and speak my lies
Before the song ends and the words lose their meaning
Before you leave in stagecoach and caravan
Before and ever after
I love you

2007-02-18T04:01:00.000+09:00

Beauty was what my eyes saw
In a place often overlooked
Mistook, because most eyes do not search
Beyond surface, veneer and facade
Beauty was what my eyes saw
In the places where I searched for me,
As cherished as a reflection,
In the hope, vain as it was,
That I too held beauty
Beauty, my heart felt,
In a slow creeping of blood,
The trilling sound it made,
In closeness and smell and touch and taste

2007-02-18T03:51:00.000+09:00

sleepless nights
spent laughing and fighting
with imaginary friends
and enemies

an acid post
i bite my tongue
but in reality
i bite my fingers

how easy it is
to curse and joke
unvoiced insults fly
from my fingertips
to your eyes

so far away
i feel your loneliness
your anger and rage
but more than all this

as i read your thoughts
i feel my own acute pain
when coffee exits
my nose

2007-02-18T03:47:00.000+09:00

Who are you?
Look at yourself in my eyes broken by the pain -
and see your thousands reflections.
This is you - cruel and sharp as a knife,
kind and tender, scared and lonely.
Look into my eyes - this is the color of love,
You will find yourself in each of my tears.
Taste my tears - this is the taste of love,
bitter and sweet, never ceasing.

Though they say to be happy I must unroll the time
to the point when your image was one -
I want to remember you always like this,
as seen through my eyes broken by pain.
I won't gather the pieces to make an ideal of you -
You will never fit one single image.
I want to surround myself with your thousand reflections,
when you are not with me anymore.

Truths Perversions

2007-02-18T03:45:00.000+09:00

Dancing in the moonlight gaze
My minds eye all a haze

I hear not the thump at my feet
I smell not the blood that seep

The sticky floor slows me not
I must dance and have no time for thought

All the shutters have been sown shut
No light flutters in my minds hut

2007-02-17T17:45:00.000+09:00

This is my "I love you"
My confession of the heart
My confession of spirit soul and body
These are the words a man does not speak
Most especially if they are true
He belies them
In fear and trepidation
What does this mean?
This is my soul
Laid bare before you,
In little pieces
Its tatters and remains
This is me
All that I am,
I give
I don't have much else to offer
But I hope and pray that it is enough
That somehow your eyes give it value
That somehow your eyes see its worth
This is my truth
Or at least it would be,
If I knew what truth is
But I wish to learn
This is my "I love you"
Spoken in an empty room
To the ghosts of you
If you only knew

Works done, deadlines are over, now i am bored!

2007-02-14T22:03:00.000+09:00

Works done, deadlines are over, now i am bored!
So tried out my hands on translating few songs.Here is the translation of my favorite japanese songs. The translation isnt good but it isnt bad:P The songs are playing in the stickam player.
1.Powdered Snow - I also have done the urdu version of it, its nice!
2.Only human - Love the softness!

Remioromen - Konayuki

Konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo surechigai
Hitonami ni magiretemo onaji sora miteru no ni
Kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru no ni

Boku wa kimi no subete nado shitte wa inai darou
Sore demo ichiokunin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo
Konkyo wa nai kedo honki de omotterun da

Sasai na iiai mo nakute onaji jikan wo ikite nado ikenai
Sunao ni narenai nara yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

Boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshiatete
Sono koe no suru hou e sutto fukaku made
Orite yukitai soko de mou ichido aou

Wakariaitai nante uwabe wo nadete ita no wa boku no hou
Kimi no kajikanda te mo nigirishimeru koto dake de tsunagatteta no ni

Konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
Zaratsuku asufaruto no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo

Konayuki nee toki ni tayorinaku kokoro wa yureru
Sore demo boku wa kimi no koto mamoritsuzuketai

Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
Futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara

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Powdered Snow - Remioromen

We always miss each other in the season of fluttering powdered snow
Though we're lost in the crowd, we're looking up at the same sky
And blown by the wind, we both feel the same chill

I'm sure I don't know everything about you
But still I found you out of a hundred million people
I have no proof, but I truly believe that

We can't spend time together without quarrelling over little things
If we can't be honest with each other, happiness and sadness are empty

If the powdered snow had made our hearts white
Would we have been able to share our loneliness?

I want to press my ear against your heart
And descend quietly into the depths where that voice leads me
Let's meet there once again

I'm the one who said I wanted us to understand each other, but just brushed the surface
When just by holding your cold hand we're connected

With eternity before it, the powdered snow seems too fragile
It stains the surface of the rough asphalt

Powdered snow, sometimes I'm unreliable and my heart is swayed
But even so I want to keep protecting you

If the powdered snow has made our hearts white
It will enfold our loneliness and return it to the sky

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Only Human - K

Kanashimi no mukougishi ni hohoemi ga aru to iu yo

Kanashimi no mukougishi ni hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
Tadoritsuku sono saki ni wa nani ga bokura wo matteru?

Nigeru tame ja naku yuke ou tame ni
Tabi ni deta hazu sa tooi natsu no ano hi

Ashita sae mieta nara tameiki mo nai kedo
Nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
Ima wa mae e susume

Kurushimi no tsukita basho ni shiawase ga matsu to iu yo
Boku wa mada sagashite iru kisetsu hazure no himawari

Kobushi nigirishime asahi wo mateba
Akai tsumeato ni namida kirari ochiru

Kodoku ni mo nareta nara tsukiakari tayori ni
Hane naki tsubasa de tobitatou
Motto mae e susume

Amagumo ga kireta nara nureta michi kagayaku
Yami dake ga oshiete kureru
Tsuyoi tsuyoi hikari
Tsuyoku mae e susume

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translation

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness
What awaits us when we arrive there?

When I started on this journey on that far away summer day
It was supposed to be to chase my dreams, not to run away

If I could only see tomorrow, there'd be no more sighs
Like a boat struggling against the flow
Right now I've got to keep going

They say happiness awaits at the end of pain
I'm still searching for an out-of-season sunflower

With my hands balled into fists, I wait for the dawn
With red fingernail marks and shining tears falling

If I've become used to the loneliness, I'll use the moonlight
And fly with featherless wings
I've got to keep going further

If the rain clouds have parted, the wet road will be shining
Only the darkness can teach us
About the strong, strong light
I've got to keep going stronger

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2007-02-09T00:04:00.000+09:00

Yeh Joh Halka Halka Saroor Hai
Yeh Teri Nazar Ka Qasoor Hai
This mild intoxication
It is the fault of your gaze

Key Sharab Peena Sikha Diya
Tairay Pyar Nai, Teri Chaah Nai
That you have taught me how to drink
With my desire,my longing for you

Teri Behki Behki Nigaah Nai
Mujhay Ik Sharabi Bana Diya…
Your flirtatious looks
Have made me a lover of wine

Sharab Kaisi, Khumaar Kaisa
Yeh Sub Tumhari Nawazishein Hein
What a drink, what a high
These are all your gifts

Pilai Hai Kiss Nazar Say Tu Nai
Key Mujhko Apni Khabar Nahi Hai
How you have made me elated with your looks
That I am not even aware of myself

Mere Dil Ki Dunya Bana Kar Mita Di, Acha!
After inhabiting my heart’s world,
you destroyed it

Mere Baad Kisko Satao Gay,
Mujhe Kis Tarah Se Mitao Gay
Kahan Ja Ke Teer Chalao Gay
Who will you torment after me?
How will you obliterate me?
Where will you direct your arrows?

Meri Dosti Ki Balaein Lo
Mujhe Haath Utha Kar Duaein Do,
Tumhein Ek Qatil Bana Diya
Thank my friendship
Raise your hands and bless me
That I have made you a murderer

Mujhe Daikho Khuwahish-E-Jan-E-Jaan
Main Wohi Hoon Anwar-E-Nim Jaan
Look at me, desire of my life’s life
That I am that same man

Tumhain Itna Hosh Tha Jub Kahan
Na Chalao Is Tarah Tum Zaban
When did you ever have such self-awareness
Don’t argue with me like this

Karo Mera Shukriya Meherban
Tumhein Baat Karna Sikha Diya
In fact, be grateful
That I was the one who taught how you to speak

Yeh Jo Halka Halka Saroor Hai,
Yeh Teri Nazar Ka Kasoor Hai
Kay Sharab Peena Sikha Diya
This mild intoxication
It is the fault of your gaze
That you have taught me how to drink

For a change!

2007-02-05T16:12:00.000+09:00

Something from Japan, for a change!

Mushaira-

2007-01-28T12:55:00.000+09:00

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Confusion, confusion, confusion!

Diamonds,pearls,jewels with alluring fragnance?

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2007-01-22T15:15:00.000+09:00

Dil Mein Ek Lahar ...

Its dark, and you cant clearly see
i know you want to reach out to me
my love i'm sorry, but cant let u see
this other, darker, side of me
its secret, its delicate,
there's only a fleeting glance u get
as the walls slam down
i love you, but not that much
not enough to share my me
maybe one day you'll see
its the only way i could be..

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2007-01-20T15:17:00.000+09:00

Ae Jazba-e-Dil

Aey jazba-e-dil gar main chaahoon,
her cheez muqaabil aa jaey
Aey jazba-e-dil gar main chaahoon,
her cheez muqaabil aa jaey
Manzil kay liay do gaam chaloon
Aur saamnain manzil aa jaey
Aey jaza-e-dil gar main chaahoon

Aey dil ki khalish chal yoon hee sahee,
chalta tu hoon un ki mehfil main
Aey dil ki khalish chal yoon hee sahee,
chalta tu hoon un ki mehfil main
Us waqt mujhay chonka dena
jab rang pay mehfil aa jaey
Us waqt mujhay chonka dena
jab rang pay mehfil aa jaey

Aey rahbar-e-kaamil chalnain ko
tayyar tu hoon per yaad rahey
Aey rahbar-e-kaamil chalnain ko
tayyar tu hoon per yaad rahey
Us waqt mujhay bhatka dena
jab saamnain manzil aa jaey
Us waqt mujhay bhatka dena
jab saamnain manzil aa jaey

Aey jazba-e-dil gar main chaahoon

Haan yaad mujhay tum ker lena
Awaz mujhay tum dey lena
Haan yaad mujhay tum ker lena
Awaz mujhay tum dey lena
Is raah-e-muhabbat mian koi
Derpesh jo mushkil aa jaaey
Is raah-e-muhabbat main koi
Derpesh jo mushkil aa jaaey

Aey jazba-e-dil gar main chaahoon

Ab kyun dhoondoon woh chashm-e-karam
Honain dey sitam baalaey sitam
Ab kyun dhoondon who chashm-e-karam
Honain dey sitam baalaaey sitam
Main chaahta hoon aye jazba-e-gham
Mushkil pe say mushkil aa jaaey
Main chaahta hoon aey jazba-e-gham
Mushkil pe say mushkil aa jaaey

Aey jazba-e-dil gar main chaahoon

her cheez muqaabil aa jaey
Manzil kay liay do gaam chaloon
Aur saamnain manzil aa jaey

Aey jaza-e-dil gar main chaahoon

Ae Jazba-e-Dil.mp3

If i can somehow describe it someday,
only to myself,
I will consider it an achievement of extraordinary proportion...

Ye Na Thee Hamaree Qismat

2007-01-16T15:35:00.000+09:00

Mirza Ghalib
Mirza Ghalib

ye na thee hamaree qismat ke wisaal-e-yaar hota
it was not in my fate to meet my lover
agar aur jeete rehte yahee intezaar hota
had I lived longer, this would still be my only desire

tere waade par jiye ham to ye jaan jhoot jaanaa
to live on your promise is to make my life a lie
ke khushee se mar na jaate agar 'eitabaar hota
would I not have died of happiness if i trusted it

teree naazukee se jaana ke bandha tha 'ehed_booda
from your frailty I learnt that the promise was delicate
kabhee too na tor sakta agar oostuwaar hota
it would not stand broken had you been determined

koee mere dil se pooche tere teer-e-neemkash ko
someone ask me about your half-drawn arrow
ye khalish kahaan se hotee jo jigar ke paar hota
would i even feel this pain if it had pierced my heart

ye kahaan ki dostee hai ke bane hain dost naaseh
what kind of friendship is this, that friends are now advisers
koee chaarasaaz hota, koee ghamgusaar hota
someone should ease my pain, someone sympathize with me

rag-e-sang se tapakta wo lahoo ki phir na thamta
from every nerve drips blood without restraint
jise gham samajh rahe ho, ye agar sharaar hota
as if that which you think is anguish is but a spark

gham agarche jaan_gulis hai, per kahaan bachain ke dil hai
threatening as love is, there is no deliverance from the heart
gham-e-ishq gar na hota, gham-e-rozgaar hota
if not the torment of love, it would be the torment of life

kahoon kis se main ke kya hai, shab-e-gham buree bala hai
whom shall I narrate the pangs of these evenings of sorrow
mujhe kya bura tha marna agar ek baar hota
i would have not resented this death, had it come only once

hue mar ke ham jo ruswa, hue kyon na gharq-e-dariya
that I died and was disgraced, why was I not just drowned
na kabhee janaaza uthata, na kaheen mazaar hota
never was there a funeral, no where was a tomb erected

usay kaun dekh sakta ke yagaana hai wo yaktaa
who can see him since his Oneness is without peer
jo dooee ki boo bhee hotee to kaheen do chaar hota
even the scent of his duality would be an introduction

ye masaail-e-tasawwuf, ye tera bayaan 'Ghalib'!
this mysticism, these statements of yours Ghalib
tujhe ham walee samajhate, jo na baada_khwaar hota
you would be a saint, if only you were not inebriated

This is my personal favorite Ghazal. "muddat hui hai yaar ko mehmaaN kiyay huay" "shauq har rang raqeeb-e-sar o saamaaN nikla" is quite good.some other worth to remember are "naavak andaaz jidhar deeda-e-jaanaaN hoN gay", "maiN nazar say pi raha hooN, ye samaaN badal na jaaey", "dil meiN is tarah say bhoolay huay gham aatay haiN".

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2007-01-15T01:15:00.000+09:00

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Wish you were here - Pink Floyd

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na maangooN heeray moti,

2007-01-10T02:49:00.000+09:00

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a..... says:
who cares!
a..... says:
us ko batao what you think...then let him decide
a..... says:
it is matter of life time
a..... says:
zindagi kharab karnay say acha hai kuch logon ki nazar mai buray ban jao
- says:
exactly!
a..... says:
cuz jab zindagi kharab hoti hai tab yeh log ap ki help karnay nahi atay

na maangooN heeray moti,
naa maangooN bangla gaaRi,
yeh meray kis kaam kay?
i dont know why. what will tomorrow bring?
i have remaining,
and how ambitious my dreams,
i wonder where i'll end up in end.
what waits around the next bend?

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2007-01-08T02:38:00.000+09:00

2006-12-30T03:32:00.000+09:00

This year it seems that time has flown by quicker than its usual pace.
It seems in the span of a year, so many anomalies have occurred which -in turn- redefined the world, the space we live in.

I pray that Allah grant patience to the mother who lost her son to a fire,
for the sister whose brother was mercilessly murdered without reason,
to the father whose son drowned in front of his friends.

I pray that Allah grant peace to the mother who departed in an accident,
leaving her four little children to cope with the vast emptiness she left behind.

I pray that Allah grant hope to the woman who left her abusive husband with her two-year old child,to cope in this cruel world with no one to turn to.

I pray for the little girls who are sold by their fathers for money he must use to feed his hungry children.

I pray for peace in places where nothing but gun shots have ever resonated.
I pray for security in a place which has no boundaries.

I pray for the safety of the men who fight for their country,
against men who fight for their religion.

I pray that every child has a moment to smile,
a day to remember,
before he dies,
as a fond memory.

I pray that no mother is ever shamed in front of her family,
leaving her hopeless,
humiliated.

I pray that no girl is condemned to a life time of prevarication for a mistake she once made as a child.

I pray that the bombastic tyrants which rule parts of this world are stripped of their integrity and pride, revealing the truth.

I pray that our dreams become our children’s realities.

I pray for the unity of Ummah.

I pray for peace, and love and happiness.

May the message of Islam brings terror into the hearts of the Kafireen, Munafiqeen, wal Murtadeen.And it brings tears of happiness to the eyes of the Mu’mineen fe kulli makaan.

Allahumma a’Izzal Islama wal Muslimeen. Wa Adhilashirka wal Mushrikeen! Allahumma makeele deenik! Allahumma ‘arish Shari’ahatak! Allahummah a’Izzah kitaabak. Allahumma Maftahli ‘Ibaadakal Mu’mineen Fathun Mubeena! Allahumman Surhum Nasrun Mu azzara! Allahumman Surhum fe Afghanistan! Allahumman Surhum fil ‘Iraq! Allahumman Surhum fe Filistine! Allahumman Surhum fe Sheeshan! Allahumman Surhum fe Somaal! Allahumman Surhum fe Al Jazaaer! Allahummansur Mujahideena fe kulli makaan! Allahummansur Mujahideena fe kulli makaan! Allahummansur Mujahideena fe kulli makaan! Allahummar hum haalahum! Allahummar hum Da’faahum! Allahummar hum Faqrahum! Allahumma yadha Jalaali wal Ikraam! Ameen Ya Rabbal ‘Alameen!

And to Allah belongs everything and all matters return back to Him alone.

Have a nice day.
Eid Mubarik and A Happy New Year!

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Hum key tehrey ajnabi

2006-12-28T11:32:00.000+09:00

ham ke Thehre ajnabi itni mulaaqaatoN ke baad
phir baneiN ge aashna kitni madaaraatoN ke baad

kab nazar meiN aaye gi be daaGh sabze ki bahaar
khoon ke dhabe dhuleiN ge kitni barsaatoN ke baad

the bahut bedard lamhe khat’m-e-dard-e-ishq ke
theiN bahut bemeh’r subheiN meh’rbaaN raatoN ke baad

dil to chaaha par shikast-e-dil ne moh’lat hi na di
kuchh gile shikwe bhi kar lete manaajaatoN ke baad

un se jo kehne gaye the “Faiz” jaaN sadqe kiye
an kahi hi reh gayi woh baat sab baatoN ke baad

Agha Shahid Ali’s Translation:

After those many encounters, that easy intimacy,
. we are strangers now –
After how many meetings will we be that close again?

When will we again see a spring of unstained green?
After how many monsoons will the blood be washed
. from the branches?

So relentless was the end of love, so heartless –
After the nights of tenderness, the dawns were pitiless,
. so pitiless.

And so crushed was the heart that though it wished
. it found no chance –
after the entreaties, after the despair — for us to
. quarrel once again as old friends.

Faiz, what you’d gone to say, ready to offer everything,
. even your life –
those healing words remained unspoken after all else had
. been said.

2006-12-28T11:17:00.000+09:00

hiteho

2006-12-17T15:04:00.000+09:00

Tumhe inn mausamon kee kaya khabar miltee aggar hum bhee

Ghuttan kay khauf say aab-o-Hawa tabdeel kar laitay

Tumahari tarhay jeenay kaa hunnar aataa aggar hum ko

Makaan apnaa wohee rakhtay pataa tabdeel kar laitay

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2006-12-10T16:12:00.000+09:00

Dil hi to hai naa sang-o-khist
Dard se bhar naa aye kyun
Royein gey hum hazaar baar
Koi humme sataaye kyun….

Dair nahi, haram nahi
Dar nahi, Aastaan nahi
Bethein hain raah-guzar pe hum
Ghair humme uthaaye kyun….

Qaid-e-hayyaat-o-band-e-ghum
Asal mein dono aik hain
Maut se pehlay aadmi,
Ghum se nijaat paaye kyun…

Haan woh nahi khuda parast
Jao woh bewafa sahi
Jisko ho deen-o-dil azeez
Uski gali mein jayein kyun…

-Ghalib

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2006-12-06T13:10:00.000+09:00

Today is a good day.
Even if it's not, I just feel like saying that.

Anyways, piccies updated!

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2006-11-29T13:16:00.000+09:00

your blood
still drips between my fingers
where it had pooled in my hands
its red and bright and clean

i soaked up your life
in a small space
and surrendered my dreams instead
you wanted it that way

slumped in this deep black hole
where light, love, blood
just seeps in to tease
i see that its all a game, and everyone wants to win

as my life flows out of me
and lies in a pool at my feet
i can hear ur mocking laughter
and i am glad. atleast i amused u.

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2006-11-29T12:43:00.000+09:00

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how did you learn
whats right and wrong

how do you see
when and where to let it be

how do u know
when to let go

how do you decide
when to stay and fight.....

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2006-11-23T13:39:00.000+09:00

Last christmas I gave you my heart,
but the very next day,
You give it away～
This time ,
I`ll give it to someone special!!

.

Blue Snow

2006-11-23T01:33:00.000+09:00

When the rain is blowing in your face
and the whole world is on your case
I could offer a warm embrace
to make you feel my love
When evening shadows and the stars appear
and there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
but I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
no doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
Oh there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret
the winds of change are blowing wild and free
you ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
nothing that I wouldn't do
go to the ends of the earth for you
to make you feel my love

dylan - sometime

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2006-11-20T23:05:00.000+09:00

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Oh, I didn't mean to yell
But sometimes I get beside myself
And oh, I didn't mean to rush you
But time keeps pushing so much
Oh, time keeps pushing so much
Your eyes stare at me in the dark
And I hope those eyes
Don't steal my freedom
My freedom
Oh, If I didn't give it all
When I stood you made me crawl
And oh, if you never heard the song
Then I could still hide down behind the wall
Then I could still hide down behind the wall
Your eyes stare at me in the dark
And I hope those eyes
Don't steal my freedom
My freedom
And I hope those eyes
Don't steal my freedom
My freedom
Said eyes, those eyes
I said don't steal my freedom
Your eyes stare at me in the dark
And I hope those eyes
Don't steal my freedom
My freedom
Oh, my freedom
Your eyes stare at me in the dark
And I hope those eyes
Don't steal my freedom
My freedom
Oh, my freedom
Said eyes, those eyes
Said eyes, those eyes
I said don't steal my freedom

To Whom It May Concern, Creed

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2006-11-20T22:31:00.000+09:00

.

Mujhse bichar ke khush rehte ho
meri tarah tum bhi jhoote ho..

.

2006-11-18T02:39:00.001+09:00

.

Lately I have begun to notice how often
I do not think of you.
You don't speak to me anymore.
I wonder if I have gone clear
or have you finally released me?
I sleep to finish the dreams
others were woken up from. It is funny,
this insight into strange minds. So many stories.
Knowing how curious you are, I'll tell you.
Someone in Alaska
stands by the window, overlooking
moonlit trees the storm
has bowed with snow.
In his dreams, he speaks to me
of the necessity for darkness. His mind
folded in a tin-foil, floating in wine, speaks
in foreign tongues.
I wish to comprehend him before
the solstice turns, leaving
the sun behind for six months.
Another girl from Peru: she rarely speaks.
Her fingers keep turning a nickel round
and around through the night. I am afraid
of her breaking this silence.

.

2006-11-18T02:16:00.000+09:00

I found this cool new website where you can check who you look alike. It scans your pic, it's really amazing.

I do think I look a little bit like some of them.though i think all of them are gorgeous:P

Try it yourself at www.myheritage.com

2006-11-17T03:54:00.000+09:00

Shush, do not speak yet,
do not judge for I care
not for your words, or how
you understand mine.

I have known love and evil;
what I am really looking for
is the wait - the long,
long wait before the final fall.
I don't want you to argue
with this metaphor.

.

2006-11-13T22:07:00.000+09:00

All my longings
All the songs of my heart
My roving eyes
And trembling hands
Seek you among the multitudes
That unwantedly sorround
Sequestring away all that i want

Your starry eyes
Haunt every night of mine
And your teasing glance
Lures me to you
Like a mirage in the desert
To the parched lips
I try to run
But return to you

How much i want
To see your dreams
And to hear
Every heartbeat of yours
To lose my self
and then search for my way
betwixt the midnight of your hair

I want to drown
In those bottomless eyes
And drink from the inebriant soul
Play upon the frown
That comes with your sighs
And caresses to make me whole

I am filled with ire
jittered and jaded away
sinking in mire
for you i wait this way
Bordering on desire
are my instincts now...
sans you i'll die
another day!

.

Wouldnt you miss me???

2006-11-07T02:13:00.000+09:00

I make friends easily.Almost all kinds of friends but specially the ones whom you love and you know they love you.not just being kind and keeping in touch, not the ones who will go away after few months.

You've been on my mind.
A vague grey-ish blue.
Now that you've crossed the gates
Can you come back and tell me,
Where do clouds go when they evaporate?

I think there are terrapins, faeries, & gnomes.

Were there little people to welcome you,
Or monsters and dwarfs and men?
Is it all strange and new,
Or is there a sense of deja vu?

Is life coming back to you?

Did you meet her there?
Did she recognise and greet you?
Stones in her wet pockets,
Lest she fly away.
Like a frail black cloud, on a rainy day.

Where you still stoned? You know, I was always frightened ...

Do you miss here? Its raining.
Is it nice there, or were you scared?
Or are you still laughing, Madcap?
Paint me a picture, frame it in a silver song,
And slide it down a rainbow

Or keep it by the Gates, above the Wall;
guess you've broken through them now.

Wouldnt you miss me???

The only thing i cant take is betraying (how hard it is to forgive as it is to define).though, with time, you learn to forgive almost anything, because you learn how hard love is to come by, and whole. you learn how rare goodness is, and complete. you take it as you find it, fragmented, distorted and all. all for the love.

its sad.
it leaves you thinking,
after everything we have been through,
after everything i have done for you,
this is what it came to?
this is what you could think of me?
it hurts ... but what the heck, we survive!

The best friends are too much a part of you, to turn away from, in anger or hurt or frustrated expectations. The gap they leave never fills up.
Sometimes even by trying hard to build the bridges things dont go the way they should.
Sometimes throwing away the ego and pride wounded doesnt helps.
and even if they are back..you miss the comfort of the familiar, you miss the utter ease of communication, where what you meant, is always known or understood.
Is it too late??
Or does the welcome really never end?
Am I really looking for you, or traces of the me I used to be?

Make friends but dont make them so hard, that when they shrug, your world crumbles. love your friends, but dont cut up pieces of ur heart and give them wrapped presents. it hurts when it hurts, badly.Make friends, but keep your 'self'. Make friends, but dont give them ur whole heart. Make friends, but don't let them break you, dont let them near enough....

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2006-10-31T01:15:00.000+09:00

Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more!!!

.

From me with Love!

2006-10-24T02:11:00.000+09:00

I just want to wish all my Muslim friends and family a very happy and meaningful Eid Mubarak. I sincerely ask for your kind forgiveness should I ever offend any of you in any way. I'm praying for peace and tolerance in the world, and I hope you would, too.Eid Mubarak to all of you, may we spend next Eid in a happier world free of wars and terrorism.May you Enjoy the God's Blessings on this day and through out the Year to come !!!

Happy EID mubarik, Maaf Zahir & Batin.

2006-10-17T09:05:00.000+09:00

Aay Khuda! Gawah Rehna～!!

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2006-10-13T11:10:00.000+09:00

What do ya do when..

You wish all you are not supposed to wish,
you think all you are not supposed to think,
you do all you are NOT supposed to do,
you don`t do what you are supposed to do....

2006-09-27T15:51:00.000+09:00

Sad,hopeless,gloomy,depressing,troubled,unhappy days.
So besides studies and surfing,for refreshment of mind this time i tried to translate one of my fav. song.It`s a pretty damn good song!

Please excuse the exchange of the word 'boat' and 'ship' because ship really works with 'spaceship' and 'boat' really works with 'row.This is a great ending theme song for My Boss My Hero.

宙船(そらふね)
Sorafune
Words/Music: Nakashima Miyuki

その船を漕いでゆけ　おまえの手で漕いでゆけ
sono fune wo koideyuke omae no te de koideyuke
おまえが消えて喜ぶ者に　おまえのオールをまかせるな
omae ga kiete yorokobu mono ni omae no ooru wo makaseru na

その船は今どこに　ふらふらと浮かんでいるのか
sono fune wa ima doko ni fura fura to ukandeiru no ka
その船は今どこで　ボロボロで進んでいるのか
sono fune wa ima doko de boro boro de susundeiru no ka
流されまいと逆らいながら
nagasaremai to sakarainagara
船は挑み　船は傷み
fune wa idomi fune wa itami
すべての水夫が恐れをなして逃げ去っても
subete no suifu ga osore wo nashite nigesattemo

その船を漕いでゆけ　おまえの手で漕いでゆけ
sono fune wo koideyuke omae no te de koideyuke
おまえが消えて喜ぶ者に　おまえのオールをまかせるな
omae ga kiete yorokobu mono ni omae no ooru wo makaseru na

その船は自らを宙船と　忘れているのか
sono fune wa mizukara wo sorafune to wasureteiru no ka
その船は舞い上がるその時を　忘れているのか
sono fune wa maiagaru sono toki wo wasureteiru no ka
地平の果て　水平の果て
chihei no hate suihei no hate
そこが船の離陸地点
soko ga fune no ririku chiten
すべての港が灯りを消して黙り込んでも
subete no minato ga tomori wo keshite damarikondemo

その船を漕いでゆけ　おまえの手で漕いでゆけ
sono fune wo koideyuke omae no te de koideyuke
おまえが消えて喜ぶ者に　おまえのオールをまかせるな
omae ga kiete yorokobu mono ni omae no ooru wo makaseru na

何の試験の時間なんだ　何を裁く秤なんだ
nan no shiken no jiken nanda nani no sabaku hakari nanda
何を狙って付き合うんだ　何が船を動かすんだ
nani wo neratte tsukiaunda nani ga fune wo ugokasunda
何の試験の時間なんだ　何を裁く秤なんだ
nan no shiken no jiken nanda nan no sabaku hakari nanda
何を狙って付き合うんだ　何が船を動かすんだ
nani wo neratte tsukiaunda nani ga fune wo ugokasunda

その船を漕いでゆけ　おまえの手で漕いでゆけ
sono fune wo koideyuke omae no te de koideyuke
おまえが消えて喜ぶ者に　おまえのオールをまかせるな
omae ga kiete yorokobu mono ni omae no ooru wo makaseru na
その船を漕いでゆけ　おまえの手で漕いでゆけ
sono fune wo koideyuke omae no te de koideyuke
おまえが消えて喜ぶ者に　おまえのオールをまかせるな
omae ga kiete yorokobu mono ni omae no ooru wo makaseru na

Spaceship
Words/Music: Nakashima Miyuki

*Row that boat
Row it with your own hands
Don't entrust your oars
To those who'd delight in your demise

Is that boat somewhere
Floating unsteadily?
Is that boat somewhere
Moving forward battered and broken?
It resists being washed away
(This ship) is defiance
(This ship) is damaged
Even if all the sailors run away with fear

Row that boat
Row it with your own hands
Don't entrust your oars
To those who'd delight in your demise

Did that boat forget
that it, in itself, is a spaceship?
Did that boat forget
that it once soared high?
The end of the earth
The end of the (sea)
That is the ship's take off point
Even if all the harbors are burnt and charred to oblivion

Row that boat
Row it with your own hands
Don't entrust your oars
To those who'd delight in your demise

It's time for what kind of test?
It's a scale to measure what?
For what purpose are you together?
What's moving the boat?
t's time for what kind of test?
It's a scale to measure what?
For what purpose are you together?
What's moving the boat?

*Repeat x2

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2006-09-20T00:27:00.000+09:00

"They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
An hour to appreciate them,
A day to love them,
But an entire life to forget them"

..Okay, Have been working my tush off to get a couple of my assignments in on time, needless to say I am totally hammered:P with satisfication! working non-stop with a few stolen moments of sleep in between is no way to live. I had a few obstacles in my way but now I am back. I have been sailing the skies in my new motives. My bad feelings have vanished. I had on small stilleto heels and it was making me crabby=P but then that`s LIFE!

2006-09-01T23:36:00.000+09:00

the space between us
grows every single day.
its beyond words, thoughts, principles, ethics.
its painful. and while i turn a blind eye to so many things - it hurts.

the space between us
is consuming everything i hold dear.

the space betwen us
all of us.
is a surprise.

Back to blogging!
I am trying to keep all the promises I make to my face in the broken mirror.
There is no doubt in my mind that I will make a something so powering atomically fanastic before my life is through:P

Believe Me!

2006-08-19T23:33:00.000+09:00

She walks down the road,
just walks on down.
She doesn't make a peep.
She don't make a sound.

She's looking for something,
something she lost.
She don't know why,
'cause hurt it cost.

Her heart she once gave,
full of love, so true.
He threw it back,
all hurt and blue.

She cried somuch,
she hurt so deep.
She don't know why,
love she must seek.

She lays in her bed,
all alone at night.
She wishes and dreams,
of something so tight.

She wishes one day,
she won't be alone.
she wishes one day,
she'll call him her own.

~ She Wishes One Day, by Caroline Ann Kennedy

I am thinking a lot these days.
I need a real change, where the ocean hits the sand.

Beautiful it is! sinking heart, needless words!

2006-07-27T22:26:00.000+09:00

ko’ii ham-nafas nahiiN hai ko’ii raazdaaN nahiiN hai
faqat ek dil thaa apnaa, so vo meh’rbaaN nahiiN hai

(ham-nafas : companion; raazdaaN : confidant; faqat : only; meh’rbaaN : affectionate)

kisii aur Gham meN itnii Khalish-e-nihaaN nahiiN hai
Gham-e-dil meraa rafiiqo, Gham-e-raayegaaN nahiiN hai

(Khalish-e-nihaaN :secret pain; Gham-e-dil : suffering of the heart; rafiiqo : friends; Gham-e-raayegaaN : useless suffering)

merii ruuh kii haqiiqat mere aaNsuoN se puuchho
meraa majlisii tabassum, meraa tarjumaaN nahiiN hai

(ruuh : soul; haqiiqat : truth; majlisii : public; tabassum : smile; tarjumaaN : manifestation)

kisii aaNkh ko sadaa do, kisii zulf ko pukaaro
baRii dhuup paR rahii hai, ko’ii saayebaaN nahiiN hai

(sadaa : call; zulf : tresses; saayebaaN : shade)

inhiiN pattharoN pe chal kar agar aa sako to aao
mere ghar ke raaste meN ko’ii kahkashaaN nahiiN hai

(kahkashaaN : galaxy)

Mustafa Zaidi

2006-07-25T00:57:00.000+09:00

BLACK coffee,

Hide not a way of feeling,

Burnt inside.

Gone the Rain!

2006-07-22T00:34:00.000+09:00

Narrow street,
suddenly from the heart,
tearful smile.

2006-07-19T03:15:00.000+09:00

Somewhere

far below,

beyond the reach

they found

a way

to get to

where it matters.

But what

about

you?

One day
I will
remember
how to
love again;
a bruised heart
heals slower
than bone.

2006-07-13T15:14:00.000+09:00

how quiet...
my gate closed and
path unswept.

2006-07-10T21:56:00.000+09:00

花心
深く見れば　
無　となり
--------------

looking deep
into the flower heart -
all is 無

The breezes at dawn
have secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.

Jalaluddin Rumi

2006-07-09T20:45:00.000+09:00

2006-07-09T03:24:00.000+09:00

ennui silhoette

2006-07-06T23:14:00.000+09:00

dasht-e-tanhaai mein, ai jaan-e-jahaan, larzaan hain
In the desert of my solitude, oh love of my life, quiver

teri avaaz ke saaye,
the shadows of your voice,

tere honthon ke saraab
the mirage of your lips

dasht-e-tanhaai mein,
In the desert of my solitude,

duri ke khas-o-khaak tale
beneath the dust and ashes of distance

khil rahe hain tere pehlu ke saman aur gulaab
bloom the jasmines and roses of your proximity

uht rahi hai kahin qurbat se
From somewhere very close,

teri saans ki aanch
rises the warmth of your breath

apani khushbuu mein sulagti hui
smouldering in its own aroma,

maddham maddham
slowly, bit by bit.

dur ufaq par chamakati hui
far away, across the horizon, glistens

qatra qatra
drop by drop

gir rahi hai teri dil daar nazar ki shabnam
the falling dew of your beguiling glance

kis qadar pyaar se hai jaan-e jahaan rakkhaa hai
With such tenderness, O love of my life,

dil ke rukhsaar pe
on the cheek of my heart,

is vaqt teri yaad ne haath
has your memory placed its hand right now

yun guman hota hai
that it looks as if

garche hai abhi subah-e-firaaq
(though it's still the dawn of adieu)

dhal gaya hijr ka din
the sun of separation has set

aa bhi gaye vasl ki raat
and the night of union has arrived.

2006-06-24T22:20:00.000+09:00

jaaniye heeriye

jaaniye heeriye

mere mann ye bata de tu

kis or chala hai tu

kya paya nahi tune

kya dhundh raha hai tu

jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni

woh baat kya hai bata

mitwa kahe dhadkan hai tujhse pyar

mitwa yeh khudse toh na tu chhupa

mere mann ye bata de tu

kis or chala hai tu

kya paya nahi tune

kya dhundh raha hai tu

jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni

woh baat kya hai bata

mitwa kahe dhadkan hain tujhse pyar

mitwa yeh khudse toh na tu chhupa

jeevan dagar mein prem nagar mein

aaya nazar mein jab se koi hain

tu sochta hain tu puchata hain

jiski kami thi kya yeh wohi hain

haa yeh wohi hain

tu ek pyasa aur yeh nadi hain

kaahe nahi isko tu khulke bataye

jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni

woh baat kya hai bata

mitwa kahe dhadkan hai tujhse pyar

mitwa yeh khudse toh na tu chhupa

teri nigaahen

par tu yeh soche jaaun na jaaun

yeh zindagi jo hai naachti toh

kyon bediyon mein hai tere paanv

preet ki dhun par naach le paagal

udta agar hai udne de aanchal

kaahe koi apne ko aaise tarsaaye

jo hai ankahee jo hai ansuni

woh baat kya hai bata

mitwa kahe dhadkan hai tujhse pyar

mitwa yeh khudse toh na tu chhupa

mere mann ye bata de tu

kis or chala hai tu

kya paya nahi tune

kya dhundh raha hai tu

mitwa...

2006-06-07T01:41:00.000+09:00

Da ules aspak

Da ules Izeer!

Wun divekh ukhster

Wun imikh dasheer!

Wime tufriz ashfikh

Abi sil vish bikheer!

Wime rubriz dishkik

Qibi vil zish sukheer!

Translation:

No voice speaks louder

Than the silence within

No eyes sees further

Than the eye within!

The heart that lies barren

Give to me what you have taken!

The mind that thinks nothing else

My desires have been forsaken!!

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2006-05-25T22:57:00.000+09:00

その瞳の奥で隠れた愛は、
気付くともしなかった私。

その心の底で守っていた気持ちは、
感じようもしなっかた私。

半分笑って、半分真顔で、
抱き寄せてくれた、
ほめてくれた、
そのすべてを
今となれば、
悲しくって、
寂しくって、
切なくって、
思い出してしまうあの素顔、
今も私の中どこかで生きている、

遠く遠く行ってしまった君は
そのまま見守ってね私のこと

痛み、苦しみ。。。
どんなに思っても君はもういない~

2006-05-07T19:42:00.000+09:00

Do you mean I have squeezed out mind-numbing caffine fueled thoughts and idea's. I have done this for no good of a reason. This is an electrical tragedy. My optimism has faded!!

2006-04-29T23:15:00.000+09:00

Got french :p

read between the lines of what's fucked up...

2006-04-27T20:26:00.000+09:00

How to make a Jappanun

Ingredients:

5 parts friendliness

1 part courage

3 parts beauty

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

Cannot take the mindless monotony of classes anymore.
When I look around and see people snoring away in their seats in the front row, I feel like shaking them awake screaming "If I'm awake at this horrible hour why can't you be too?????
someone is right out there saying"They come to sleep or speak japlish." lol..

I need to major in anger management instead.

To make things worse, it isn't just sleeping students that piss me off.

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things are quite complicated these day so allow me to write down as something is surely better than nothing.

Its very difficult knowing the right thing to do. It's equally difficult making everyone happy. Somewhere, someone or the other is bound to have problems with what you do - even if you have the best intentions in the world.

Excuse the long entry, the countless incredibly clichéd phrases it employs, and its lack of a solid point. All I know is that I'm on this boulevard of self-discovery, and it can substitute for the "right" path for now, whatever that may be.

Leadership is all about dealing with, having control and keeping it, learning how to put your foot down when need be, keeping your temper under control and your mouth shut when you're upset.

watever it is.....

It's a good life.n it should be.

Ha.

listening to- Dil ki qasam,Noori.
Hum duniya badlein gay,hamney khai hai dil ki qasam.
aasaman choolen ge
choolen ge hum

Finally

2006-04-24T01:05:00.000+09:00

Being quite happy with busy routines,beside the extreme need of water,sleep,free time ...

've finally reached the saturation point.or what i should call it.

Active,alive and in ultimate harmony.
(God knows i am actually worn out,ill at ease and wan but wont let ya know.)

Someone, please SHOOT me or SECURE me.

2006-04-11T19:52:00.000+09:00

taskii.N ko ham na roe.n jo zauq-e-nazar mile
huraa.N-e-Khuld me.n terii suurat magar mile

apanii galii me.n mujh ko na kar dafn baad-e-qatl
mere pate se Khalq ko kyo.n teraa ghar mile

saaqii garii kii sharm karo aaj varnaa ham
har shab piyaa hii karate hai.n mai jis qadar mile

tujh se to kuchh kalaam nahiin lekin ae nadiim
meraa salaam kahiiyo agar naamaabar mile

tum ko bhii ham dikhaaye ke majanuu.N ne kyaa kiyaa
fursat kashaakash-e-Gam-e-pinhaa.N se gar mile

laazim nahii.n ke Khijr kii ham pairavii kare.n
maanaa ke ek buzurg hame.n ham safar mile

ae saakanaan-e-kuchaa-e-dil_daar dekhanaa
tum ko kahii.n jo Ghalib-e-aashuftaa sar mile

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we wouldn't weep over [the loss of] peace, if relish of sight would be available.
but among the Hoors(Houreen) of Paradise your face/form should be available!

don't bury me in your street after the murder!
through my address/information, why should {everybody} find your house?

{be ashamed for / uphold the honor of} Cupbearer-ship today; otherwise we
every night, always drink wine to the extent it would be available.

there's no 'word' against you, but, oh friend,
give him my greetings, if you see the Messenger.

to you too we would show what Majnun did.
if we would get leisure from the tension of hidden grief.

it's not necessary that we would follow in Khizr's footsteps.
we considered that we had acquired one venerable-elder as a fellow-traveler.

oh dwellers in the street of the heart-possessor,
keep an eye out-in case you {anywhere / by any chance}
run into Ghalib with the disordered head.

-GaLib-
Source: Urdupoetry.com,flikr.com

eVen A smile...

2006-04-09T21:17:00.000+09:00

“Indeed the gates to goodness are many: glorifying God, praising Him, magnifying Him, saying ‘There is no god but Allah,’ enjoining the good and forbidding the wrong, removing (any source of) harm from the road, making the deaf hear (and understand), guiding the blind, showing the seeker his need, striving as far as your two legs could carry you and with deep concern to give succor to him who asks, carrying with the strength of your arms (the burdens of) the weak. All these are (acts of) charity.” “And your smiling in the face of your brother is charity, your removing of stones, thorns, and bones from people’s paths is charity, and your guiding a man gone astray in the world is charity for you.”

According to this hadith,charity is not just giving to the weak or poor, it opens up a vast and limitless world by emphasizing that every good is charity.This points to another basic principle of Islamic thought and behavior that the standard on which life is judged is not the materialistic or the economic standard alone but one based on faith, feeling, and sensitivity, which form the core of human relations.

2006-04-07T16:22:00.000+09:00

Pulling the plug for a few days is a great help when it comes to unwinding.
I mean once in awhile i think i should have to withdraw from the world.
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2006-04-03T22:18:00.000+09:00

Its raining...
Its pouring...
My love-life is boring...

Random feeling: I want to fall in love.
Dear GOD!! my life is so sad.

2006-04-02T03:16:00.000+09:00

2006-03-31T01:33:00.000+09:00

2006-03-29T21:38:00.000+09:00

rondo has been a breath of fresh air after some fairly mediocre schtick that i've seen....i appreciate that it's different and not "over done.loved the special effects and the storyline's good too...there's no incredibly cheesy overexplicated themes that have been beaten to death in many of the other dramas i've seen..

started off with action, then slowed down to introduce the story line and characters.
A lot of twists and turns in the story line, and characters also link to each other in one way or another.

Takenouchi Yutaka is SMOOTH as ever....this guy just exudes cool...he's a pimp, man.

english version on torrents.....http://www.aoiiro.com/

2006-03-25T16:13:00.000+09:00

2006-03-20T21:41:00.000+09:00

Chief Cabinet Secretary Abe asks public not to use Winny software
[Winny - a popular file sharing program in Japan ]

Chief Cabinet Secretary Shinzo Abe has asked the public not to use the file exchange software Winny following police and Defense Agency information leaks due to viruses.

"Government organizations are making every effort to prevent a recurrence," Abe said during a press conference on Wednesday. "But I want everyone to be cautious. The most secure way of preventing information leaks is not to use Winny software."

Data leaks take place when Winny-installed computers are infected with viruses. This has happened both in government bodies and with private firms.

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A massive amount of investigation data kept by Ehime Prefectural Police has been leaked onto the Internet, apparently after the computer that kept the data was infected with a virus through the file exchange software Winny.

The amount of information leaked from the Ehime police computer is about four times that recently leaked online from Okayama Prefectural Police.

The leaked data includes investigative reports on a murder case in Uwajima, and expert statements on DNA analysis in a sex offence. It also contains a list of 188 people involved in investigations, plus their mobile phone numbers and addresses.

"It seems to be true that investigation information has been leaked," a senior Ehime police official said. "We are examining the details."

Sources said that the contents of the data suggest they were probably leaked online after the computer that kept them was infected with a virus via Winny.

Ehime police officials learned that investigation data might have been leaked a few days ago. Three officers are tracing the exact route of the attack.

Ehime police officers can use their private computers to write investigation reports with the consent of their bosses, and are required to notify them in writing whenever they take those computers out of the offices. They are also required to install anti-virus software when they connect their computers to the Internet.

The police force also told officers not to install Winny software on their private computers when they used those machines for work.

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Winny (also known as WinNY) is a Japanese peer-to-peer (P2P) file-sharing program that claims to be loosely inspired by the design principles behind the Freenet network and that also claimed to keep user identities untraceable. While Freenet was implemented in Java, Winny was implemented as a Windows C++ application.

2006-03-15T14:33:00.000+09:00

Random feelinG: somethinGz rong with ME..umm.

2006-03-11T22:01:00.000+09:00

ooHh!! need an express check out of routine!!

～mEra cHain vaIn sab Ujra～

2006-03-07T02:07:00.000+09:00

mera chain vain sub ujra～zalim nazer hataleey～。。。。。。今日はかなりのってますっ。。これで踊っちゃうかもんっ。。！！

2006-03-05T00:50:00.000+09:00

Racism ,intolerance and hate are very easy, and a step away.
Fairness and mercy and hope are difficult
because they put the burden of responsibility on your shoulder
not on the shoulder of the others.
It is as simple as that.

2006-03-04T01:18:00.000+09:00

First attempt!! NOT bad at alll~...:p

2006-03-02T19:33:00.000+09:00

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me at subway.
She was with anotherman.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll always be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high, fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll always be with you.

You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
It's time to face the truth,
I will always be with you.

2006-03-02T00:56:00.000+09:00

Yeh daagh daagh ujala
Yeh shaab gazeeda sehr
Tha intizaar jiss ka,
Yeh who sehr tau nahin
-Faiz Ahmed Faiz

2006-02-26T21:48:00.000+09:00

限られた時の中で
どれだけのコトが出来るのだろう…
言葉にならないほどの想いを
どれだけアナタに伝えられるのだろう….

ずっと閉じ込めてた胸の痛みを消してくれた今
　私が笑えるのは一緒に泣いてくれたキミがいたから

一人じゃないからキミが私を守るから
強くなれる　もう何も恐くないヨ….
時がなだめてく痛みと共に流れてく
日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる。

説明する言葉も
ムリして笑うコトも
しなくていいから

何かあるなら　
いつでも頼ってほしい
疲れた時は　
肩をかすから
どんなに強がっても
ため息くらいする時もある

孤独じゃ重い扉も
共に立ち上がれば
また動き始める

一人じゃないから私がキミを守るから

あなたの笑う顔が見たいと思うから

時がなだめてく痛みと共に流れてく
日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる

時に人は傷付き、
傷付けながら染まる色は

それぞれ違うケド
自分だけのSTORY

作りながら生きてくのだからずっと、
ずっとあきらめないで….

一人じゃないから私がキミを守るから

あなたの笑う顔が見たいと思うから

時がなだめてく痛みと共に流れてく

日の光がやさしく照らしてくれる

by－ME.

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2006-02-22T19:29:00.000+09:00

智に働けば角が立つ。
情に棹させば流される。
意地を通せば窮屈だ。
兎角に人の世は住みにくい。
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説明：理知だけで割り切っていると他人と衝突するし、他人の感情を気遣っていると、自分の足元をすくわれる。

a story about a painter who tries to avoid the secular world that is full of 'importunate, disgusting, fussy, and shameless people' and to live as a hermit. The author calls this work as a 'useless' novel. But Soseki's passion underlies throughout this novel in spite of the protagonist's indifferent words and deeds

(Soseki's own reference to this work)
Just to live a beautiful life, or to live a poetical life, is very little part of-I'm not sure how large percentage of-a meaningful life. So the protagonist of The Three-cornered World is no good. I mean he is not all bad, but if he persists in his goodness in this world, he needs an Ibsenian way。

http://www.aozora.gr.jp/cards/000148/files/776_14941.html

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2006-02-20T00:07:00.000+09:00

Yeh Mahalon, Yeh Takhton, Yeh Taajon Ki Duniya
Yeh Insaan Ke Dushman, Samajon Ki Duniya
Yeh Daulat Ke Bhooke, Rawajon Ki Duniya
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

Har Ek Jism Ghayal, Har Ek Rooh Pyaasi
Nigaahon Mein Uljhan Dilon Mein Udaasi
Yeh Duniya Hai Ya Aalam-E-Badhawaasi
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

Yahan Ek Khilona Hai Insaan Ki Hasti
Yeh Basti Hai Murda Paraston Ki Basti
Yahan Zindagi Se Bhi Hai Maut Sasti
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

Jawaani Bhatakti Hai Badkaar Bankar
Jawaan Jism Sajte Hain Baazar Bankar
Yahaan Pyar Hota Hai Vyopar Bankar
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

Yeh Duniya Jahaan Aadmi Kuchh Nahin Hai
Wafaa Kuchh Nahin Dosti Kuchh Nahin Hai
Jahan Pyaar Ki Kadr Hi Kuchh Nahin Hai
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

Jalaa Do Ise Phoonkh Dalo Yeh Duniya
Jalaa Do, Jalaa Do, Jalaa Do Phoonkh Dalo Yeh Duniya
Mere Samne Se Hata Lo Yeh Duniya
Tumhari Hai Tum Hi Sambhalo Yeh Duniya
Yeh Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaaye, To Kya Hai ?

-------Sahir Ludhianvi for Guru Dutt’s masterpiece, Pyasaa.

zaa party was fun!!:p

2006-02-15T02:39:00.000+09:00

2006-02-13T20:22:00.000+09:00

Phaink paisa

dekh tamasha～

2006-02-13T01:29:00.000+09:00

Some of the Best Moments in Life:-

-To fall in LoVE.

- To laugh until it hurts your stomach.

- To find mails by the thousands when you return from a vacation.

- To go for a vacation to some pretty place.

- To listen to your favorite song on the radio.

- To go to bed & to stare at the fullmoon through the window.

- To clear your last exam n hang out while yar way back home:p.

- To receive a call from someone, you don't see a lot, though you want to.

- A good conversation with a sweet person.

- To find money in a pant that you haven't used since last year .

-To laugh without a reason.

- To feel butterflies in the stomach every time that you see THAT Person .

- To pass time with your best friends.

- To see people that you like, feeling happy.

- To have somebody tell you that he/she loves you.

- To pass by the person ya know well smiling.

- To laugh .......laugh........and laugh ...... remembering stupid things done with friend~

n this is alllllllllllll true...lol..very true...;)

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im not in a mood to b sad at a～ll!!!

2006-02-11T21:40:00.000+09:00

私が初めて誰かに本をプレゼントとしてもらいました。最近、あまり本なんか読んでいなかったので、　せっかくもらったので、ありがたいつもりで読み始めましたが、この本から感じたものは想像以上に大きかった。
この物語は、ジョン・ハーディングと言う人物の視点で書かれたものです。　彼は、ボーランドと言う田舎町で生まれて学校に行き、高校の優等生で、最上級クラスでは委員長も務めた。　それからこの町を離れて大学に行き、大学野球で全米代表にもなった。そして、今、コンピューター業界最大の会社の一つ、ミレニアム・ユナイテッド社の新社長として二十年ぶりにこの町に戻ってきた。
ジョンは自分を支えてくれる妻、サリーと、最愛の息子、リックとともに幸せな生活を送っていた。　また、町の人からはその業績から敬愛され暖かく迎えられた。　しかし、その幸せは長く続く事はなく、ボーランドに戻って数ヶ月後、ジョンはサリーとリックを交通事故で亡くしてしまった。
二人を亡くした悲しみは大きすぎ、ジョンは生きる希望を亡くしてしまい、毎日長い一日を送っていた。　会社側は長い休暇を与えてくれたが、彼にとってもう会社に戻る気すらなく、護身用で買った拳銃を使い自殺を計ろうとした。　しかし、そのとき彼を救ったのは、彼の親友であるビルであった。　ビルはジョンを案じ様子をみに来たと同時に、ジョンにリトルリーグ（少年野球）の監督を引き受けてくれないかと頼み、悩んだ末に承諾した。　そこで彼はまさに天使と呼ぶにふさわしい、ティモシーという11歳の少年と出会うことになった。
ティモシーは小柄な少年で決して野球がうまいと呼べる子ではなかった。　普通の子ならば、自分を守る為にもすぐに諦めて野球を続ける事はないだろう。　しかし、彼は、どんなに打てなくても、どんなに守備が下手でも毎日必ず自分は成長していると信じ、決してあきらめる事はなかった。　その彼の気持ちに、初めはバカにしていたチームメイトも、そして試合に応援にくる観客も含め、誰もがティモシーを応援し始めた。　ジョンは彼の行動から生きる力を与えられ、また彼自身新たな道を歩き出す事になった。
最後の試合となった優勝決定戦、誰もが期待する中ティモシーは全試合を通して初めてのヒットを打つことになった。しかも、逆転のホームを踏み、チームの勝利に貢献した。　誰もが予想していなかったが、誰もが期待していた奇跡だった。
リトルリーグも終り、ジョンはまた職場に復帰する事になった。これもすべて、　ティモシーからもらった勇気によるものであった。　そのティモシーとも3カ月ほど会わなかったある日、彼の主治医から連絡があり、ティモシーの病気の事を聞かされた。彼の病名は脳腫瘍であり、手術でも決して取り除く事ができず、あとは死を待つ状態であった。しかし、それを知らされたティモシーは、残りの人生を精一杯生きることを決め、野球を始めたという。　11歳の少年が、自分の病気を人に悟られず、そしてそれ以上の勇気と感動を与えた彼の大きさにジョンは何も言う事ができなかった。　ティモシーが亡くなるまでの数ヶ月、ジョンはティモシーとの時間を作るように努めた。　そして、彼が亡くなった今、ジョンは、彼の息子リックを祈る際、十二番目の天使にも祈りを捧げている。

ティモシーの口癖に、「毎日、毎日、あらゆる面で、僕はどんどんよくっている！」と「絶対、絶対、絶対、絶対、絶対、絶対、あきらめるな！」と言うのがある。これは、過去の有名な哲学者の言葉であり、彼が主治医の先生から教えてもらったものである。とても単純でわかりやすい言葉であるが、奥が深く、とても力がでることばである。この言葉は、チームメイトに、そして観客に広がって行ったとき、ティモシーの存在の大きさを感じ、人は努力する事で、人の心までも動かす力を秘めているのだと改めて感じました。　また、自分が死の病であるとしりながらも、常に前向きに生きるこの11歳の姿勢に、久々に感動を覚えました。　死ぬことは簡単かもしれません。　しかし、限られた命の火を無駄にせず、生きる喜びを与えてくれたティモシーの心を、読んでいない人にも紹介できればいいなと思いました。

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2006-02-09T01:42:00.000+09:00

People who are not trustworthy are those who offer the most flattery.

True friends will inquire about deeper subjects pertaining to your emotions instead of your possessions-

2006-02-07T02:43:00.000+09:00

In the midst of the madness that is ma life- study,work,school,randomn commitments,work,n an everest ov depressionz....thiss week amazinngly was happy goin..ohh..the last oneee as well...heheh...n yea..weekss aree passin without oncee feeeling misrablee. mayB that might b even the shadow ov the love songss ...i feel likee singingg everyy otherr momentt...LOL...heheh...
yea..i spend ma dayz amusin myself.Happiness isnot dependent on others.not alwayzz...

I keep singing the whole day long..ppl thinkk im mad..nah!!... im in lov...nah!!...

a lot ov ppl are annoyinn mee...n seriouslyy someonezz gonna gett it...seriouslyy!!

btw..im tiredd...but surprisingly i donn feel likee takin restt....

Oh GOD～this freAKyneSs!!

2006-02-01T23:21:00.000+09:00

I`m weird.I`m really weird.*sigh*

Words serve no purpose.
Some guys are emotionless pigs.
I do`nt wanna talk anymore.I`m more happy while staying queit.
Therez really no difference left when talkin to the walls or a person.
n not gettin a response will annoy ya but not gettin a response frm walls
wont displease anyone,atleast they listen..yeaa..they do.....oHh world!! am i being
heard!! am I!!!!!

I`m weird.

this aunty has been getting on my nerves.shell never realize that a thing,when said again and again loses its fucking touch.huh.it doesnot sound funny rather it starts annoying....yea..quitee annoying....n im afraid if ma this feelin comez on ma face....khair...she wont...umm she cant read itt.. .she fails to understand it and the fact that she needs to come up with something else as the *peeley chatey wali* story has become old now...yeSs...very old...

I`m weird.

Work , work n work!! the pay which i rarely usee....sleepin in the bank frm months....haah!
when will i learn?
i rarely use money..lol...though i have it..khikhhikhii(that never meanz im kanjoos..;))

I`m weird.

it TOTALLY freaks me out when fortune cookiez have such accurate predictions!this is whacked..how the hell does a piece of paper inside a tasteless cookie know what I was feeling?...anyway...thankx to ma sweetest frd for sending me disney cookies...

I`m weird

I've finally reached the saturation point.Someone, please shooot me.NOW!!

I`m weird.

You are a No Drama Mama!

No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother youYou've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazyYou're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for itYou don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is!

Are You a Drama Queen?

Is thiss true.....?well..ll i personally don like galz so called drama queen...hehe..

I`m weird.

don`t i need a changee..*cough*

anywayy..cheerz! there might b somethin for mee coming ahead soon..strongly believing on ma mom sayin *her kaam mein khuda ki koi na koi behtari hoti hai meri bachi*.....hhmm..

CheerZ!!

DoNtt!!

2006-01-27T23:50:00.000+09:00

Don't grow old!

Many people are afraid of growing old.
I'm afraid of growing old and boring.

Many people are afraid of growing old, alone.
I'm afraid of growing old, insane.

Many people are afraid of losing their looks.
I'm afraid of losing my dreams.

Many people are afraid of losing their youth.
I'm afraid of losing my soul.

When you're 15, 35 seems ancient.
you're 35, 15 seems juvenile.

A turnaround in a split second
-two decades zoom past andbefore you know ict,
it's only a mile to the next millennium.

Don't fear age,
it's a right of person-hood.

Don't fear death- it's God's greatest jest.

Don't grow old - you don't have to.

Don't date because you're desperate.
Dont marry because you're miserable.
have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't separate because you think it's fashionable.
Don't drink because you have troubles.
Don't gamble because you think winning is inevitable.
Don't philander because you think you're irresistible.

Most likely, you're not.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat.
Don't lie.
Don't pretend.
Don't try to buy your way into the kingdom of God.
Don't dictate because you're smarter.
Don't demand because you're stronger.
Don't sleep around because you think you're old enough and knowbetter.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Dont sell yourself, your family or your ideals.

Don't stagnate.
Don't regress.
Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Don't live in the past.
Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw you life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because yourbiological clock is ticking and you can't afford to have youreggs harvested before the new millennium.

There's always a mad rush to something, somewhere - but victorydoes not always belong to those who finish first.

Sometimes,
there is no race to be won,
only a price to be paidfor some of life's more hasty decisions.

You can't always go with the throng who could be wrong.
Sometimes, you have to be alone to be enlightened.
To terminate your loneliness,
reach out to the homeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts
care for the needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies,
get a puppy.

Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrongreasons.

To keep yourself warm,
buy a jacket.

In the long run,
it will be less complicated and less costly.

To make yourself happy,
pursue your passions
and be the best ofwhat you can be.

Simplify your life.
Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements
abusive friends, nasty habitsand dangerous liaisons.

Don't abandon your responsibilities,
but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for yourfamily.
Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you're not ready.

Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Fall in love - it's the greatest thing on earth.
But take care and remember,
after the fall must come the rise.

Go on that trip.
Don't postpone it.
Say those words.
Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you must even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Hold hands.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself.
Don't wait for someone to take care of you.

You light up your life.
You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except you.

It is true that life doesn't get easier with age.
It only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid.
Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.
Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.

Just grow up!

～もうすぐ春だよ~ｎ！！

2006-01-25T23:53:00.000+09:00

　　　Ｓｐｒｉｎｇ　2006 　～cominG sOon~

Bhoo~T

2006-01-19T00:14:00.000+09:00

i donno wat makes them dress like that plus they smell badly n their speakin style suckx....
uGgGhhHHHh~khooooOOOOOfffFFFFnnAAAaaaKKkk... btw they are guyz...khikkhikkhikhi...yuccC

2006-01-17T17:25:00.000+09:00

Things are getting deeper and the thoughts even more deeper.Therez soo much to think.Therez so much to do,n the time is sooo less....these are the dayz when ya wanna do everything but end up doing nothing.these are the dayz when ya are busy enough n ya don really have time to do wat ya really want but still ya are bored n feel like ya have nothing to do.these are the dayz when ya wanna show someone how much ya lov them but still your words lackk somewhere n atlast they never know.these are the days when ya wanna help someone but ya don have the strength.N yeah..these are the dayz which arnt gonna come back once they are gone.

I'm trying very hard to be happy these days. Despite being ignored, despite not feeling too happy, I'm trying to BE very happy.
And it's actually, kind-of-working.
If you keep yourself busy and distracted, you tend to forget(not really)...

Can I ever, ever, forget these days (as mama says youll have happiness all over and you wont even remember your past) ??
Can I ever step beyond some people? ?
Not unless they acknowledge me.

Why lie somebodyy? You know your bloody self too well....

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I feel like i wanna go to MONGOLIA*smile*....umm just for 2,3 hours....
plz. oh GOD let me go.... but alone. comeeonnn ppl.. believe it now.. im NOT a fantasy gal,I hate dreams,I hate fiction n im no more gonna fantasise ur lives..

2006-01-15T23:16:00.000+09:00

How we live and die,

run and hide,

give up and try,

wish to be shown and admired,

all at the same time.

How we see the ball go from court to court,

see the hand slip from the tiller on the boat,

and wish for someone to help us not drown,

all at the same time.

How we hate everyone,

and expect to be loved in return,

how we kill and destroy,

and still seek forgiveness,

at the same time.

How we are us,

and we are not them,

but they are us,

and we are not them,

how we want to be them,

but in the end,

it's just us wanting to be them,

and them not even being close to us,

all at the same torturing time.

2006-01-12T23:25:00.000+09:00

Hearts Without Hate,Minds Without Mix-ups –

A Challenge to Leardership.

What defines the strength of a nation? What should be the foundation of leadership?
What is the key to a future of peace and prosperity in an increasing globalized world? Well,first,let me share some facts with you.
Of the world`s 6800 languages, some 90% will be extinct within the next 100 years. We`re consuming 80% of the world`s available resources. The world`s total income has grown by an average of 25% a year in the past 5 years and yet the number of poor people in the world has increased by 100 million.The top 1% of the world`s population has the same combined income as the lower 57%. 800 million people don`t have enough to eat, while rich nations are forced to dump thousands of tons of food in to the ocean.Finally, 1.2 billion people live on less than US $1 a day, 3 billion on less than US $3, and an even greater number live on less than US $5 a day.There are several such figures,all of which make one thing clear: we have to admit that globalization is happening, and more importantly, there is much need to ponder the dark side of it.
As a youth today,I see my country, my region, and my world on the edge of an abyss.It doesn`t sit well with me.My generation will live in the shadows of the decision made or not made by today`s leadership.We will live with the decision to pollute or conserve,to oppress,exploit and abuse, or to empower, foster , and protect. The world we want to inherit is one in which freedoms and civil liberties are not suspended in the name of democracy. We don`t want to work 10 to 15 hours a day just to produce the next generation of mindless conservatives and slave labor.
Today, corporate globalization uses nuclear bombs, standing mines,imperialism and diversity of human cultures to make sure that it`s only money,patents,goods and services that are borderlessly globalized- not the free movement of people, not a respect for human-rights and not international treaties, cultural crisis or environmental problems. “Is globalization only to benefit the powerful and the financiers, spectatulators, investors and traders? Does it offer nothing to men, women and children ravaged by the violence of poverty?” writes Nelson Mandela in the Davos World Economic Forum.
We, the youth of this globalized world, never want freedom to be curtailed in the name of protecting freedom, nor do we want liberties to be curtailed in the name of democracy.We don`t want to define all kind of dissent as terrorism.And what else? We don`t want leadership that breeds hatred among nations.And yet, these are some of the dangers facing us in the world today. As Upendra Baxi, Proffesor of Law,University of Warwick writes, “The emerging necrophilic anthrax terrorism is a catastrophic incarnation of a world without borders”　. This is only one example of what poor leardership can cause in a globalized world.
If we have a look at the headlines of any newspaper we`ll see terror, oppression, and ethnic tensions in India,China,Sri Lanka, Myanmar, and the list goes on and on. The names are different, the religious orders may vary, but the fallout from these headlines remains the same.Orphaned children,helpless widows,looted shops, burnt homes, and overfull burial grounds are all tragic remnants of the bitterness and insecurity left imbedded in many minds. It`s incalculable.No country can be at peace if its citizens are at war with each other. No nation can prosper if its people are physically and emotionally impoverished by violence. “The main goal of the future is to stop violence. The world is addicted to it.” says Bill Cosby, African-american comedian,actor, and author.
All this begs the question,what is the solution? My solution is change. We must change the way we think,act and feel about our world. “The possibilities are numerous once we decide to act and not react,” says Gloria Anzaldna. No longer are the answers of the past acceptable solutions for the future. Nuclear stand-offs must be supplanted by de-nuclearization and anti^proliferation. Guerilla warfare must be abdicated in favor of political inclusion and respectful public debate. Capitalist imperialism must be curbed to make way for sustainable, viable and equitable economic growth.
This brings me to the subject which forms the core component of my strategy: educating the youth against community hatred and misconceptions of globalization. The youth today are often confused about who they are and what they are. This confusion is often enforced by news media and even national laws. Religious, cultural or personal symbols help peopleto better understand their heritages.We`re trading our languages, music,histories, traditions and cultural images for Hollywood movies,Cokes,nike,pop music and Britney Spears dance moves. We`re too busy shopping and trying to keep up with the latest fashions in order to be stylish and survive as consumers to stop and think about the impact we are having on our world or what is happening in the world around us. “No sensible decision can be made any longer without taking into account not only the world as it is, but the world as it will be….” Says Isaac Asimov(1920-92) , Russian-born American scientist, and writer.
Muslim headscarves have forced at least one country to grapple with its identity. If I choose to dress in a micro-miniskirt that is my right. If I choose to wear leather clothes with metal spikes or cover myself with tattoos that is acceptable as a form of personal expression. Why can`t I choose to cover my head with a scarf? From the governments perspective, the law must be changed. They say that wearing a headscarf is too much of an extremist position that aligns itself with fundamentalist Islam, and so it must be banned by law. This type of behavior is devastating to cultural tolerance and acceptance. This type of one-size-fits-all politics needs to be abandoned.
Instead of banning forms of personal expression that we do not understand, governments need to foster an environment where cultural diversity is celebrated through means of awareness and edification.We should influence governments to introduce compulsory courses at school on World Communities, Where children learn at least five principals of all major religions and philosophies.By introducing a new world body whose point is not politics but cultural exchange,through these programs we cannot only give chidren a better sense of who they are but also teach them how they can acclimate themselves to their host cultures. “Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world,” says Nelson Rolihlana Mandela,A South African-Black political leader who was jailed for anti-apartheid activities.
Just imagine! If this generation is motivated not by destructive division but by the constructive vision of making the regions peaceful and prosperous, there will be no stopping them. It will not be a blind army of the faithful but the most enlighted human vehicle of global change. Dalai Lama, a Tebetan spiritual leader, says, “Peace and the survival of life on earth as we know it are threatened by human activities which lack a commitment to humanitarian values.” So even, if a dark cloud approaches these young men and women, they will not fall prey to falsehood. You see, minds that have been taught successful vocations are less susceptible to being filled with such nonsence. Hands occupied in creative work do not easily throw down their tools to lift guns.
Globalization today has made us think ”It`s-a-small-world-after-all.” But for the real borderless global village our motherland needs to be energized. All big and small nations need to get together and make all decisions based on treaties which are agreed upon by all the countries.It can help to strengthen ordinary peoples voices. We need to build a leadership base that works with its neighbors and synthesizes the potential of all our peoples to be not just economically formidable but also culturally aware and proud. “Effective leadership is not about making speeches or being liked; leaderships is defined by result not attribute.” Says Peter F(erdinand) Drucker,Australian writer, auther, and educator. The goal should be to overcome conflicts between nation states and rests on a foundation of shared values such as peace, democracy and liberalism in order to make socities without bounds.
We find ourselves at the fork in the road. It is time for not just talk but action and progress. “To belong to the global society of well-ordered peoples, states have to stand up and be counted.” Says Upendra Baxi. To meet the ambition of having a borderless world,opinions need to be worked out. We have gotten ourselves in a big mess. We are in a crisis of global proportions. It`s time to break down the boundaries and borders.It`s time to change – you and me. I`ll conclude this essay with the words of “Rush”,a wonderful singer, who express my feelings and spirits for the world ahead.
If the future`s looking dark,
We are the ones who have to shine.
If there`s no one in control,
We are the ones who draw the line.
Though we live in trying times,
We are the ones who have to try.
Tough we know that time has wings,
We are the ones who have to fly.

Statistics taken from:
l Un website
l Unicef website
l Human development Report
l “Towards a new century”,Le Monde diplomalique,Jan.1999
l Lyrics taken from “Rush`s” song “Morning Glory”.

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world without borders was the main topic given and me won the prize of excellence just one year back, i was in Kyushuu, for collecting my prize from one of the top private famous university.
Its about a whole year i havent acheived any~thing.....though its sad....buttt...i cant do anything...when work and studies murges up therez less timee to hang out, to shop n so to enjoyn offcourse to get into any activity...hmmm..i feel like i have atleast half stepped into my social life but without satisfaction...umm..anywayy lets leave all thatt

enjoyin~..at this timee i use most of my free time talking whether at home,work or college.umm mayb i like to smile n laugh n yeah ppl think i laugh a lot n smile all around. but actually half of it is fakee....hehe...mayb this is wat life isss.....emm..n.. leave all that as well...lol

2006-01-10T00:43:00.000+09:00

~Allah u Akbar,Allah u Akbar,Allah u Akbar,Laa ilaaha illaallaH wAllah u Akbar,Allah u Akbar,Wallilahil Hamd~

Happy Eid MubaraKk!!

2005-12-30T01:34:00.000+09:00

tired....... more than anythinn i just want a place to relaxxx.....mayb at the seaside durin full moon,mayb a big open street with no one,mayb just the corner seat ov ma collegez library,or mayb just shut myself up in my room...*sigh*..

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the girl in me

i want to be stranded,
with you on cooney's island,
to feel the silky sand touch my toes,

run along the shore,
scream and shout,
as you follow me around,
and then let you win,
by just giving in.

i want to sit with you,
under a coconut tree,
on a shiny monday morning,
when everyone's at work,
and eat slices of mangoes,
messi-ly.

i want to be with you,
on the clouds,
among the stars,
we shall shine the brightest,
and in the mornings,
i can walk beside you safely,
on a rainbow,
that shimmers.and.glimmers.

i want to dance with you,
under the pouring rain,
in a field,
where wild strawberries grow,
and there's no music,
but the one playing in our mind.

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kk

2005-12-26T21:17:00.000+09:00

Naan Desu Ka~!!

our Very own bread Naan is very popular in Japan.
My Dad told me to get few naanz as well.
anywayy..i didntt kneww wheree it was keptt...Dad told me butt the storee wass big enoughh... I was also hesitant to ask the attendant. I had just started my Japanese language class and I was not prepared to take out all my language weapons at that time.

But I have to eat itt...............I searched a lot in that store but.. I was seeing everything else but Naan.
Camee backk...n my Dad iss lookin at mee.. you gott every otherr thingg other thann naan..hahah..
I learned the Japanese for “what is this?” ,“how much is this?” and “where is this?”.How much (is this) – “Ikura desu ka”Where (is this) – “Doko desu ka”What (is this) – “Nan desu Ka”. Joiningg the last two sentences to ask for Naan (see the similarity between Naan and NAN ("What", in Japanese).So if you want to ask where Naan is, call the attendant and ask him:“NAAN doko desu ka”

nextt dayy I havee to gett NaaN...noww i was very confident. I know Japanese and I know what I want.

So go there, ask him, get it and get out.
Simple!
I entered the store.
I went to the food section.
I didn’t bother to search for Naan once again..hehe

I called the attendant.
I need Naan and I have to ask him where is Naan.
So what I need to ask is “NAAN Doko Desu ka?"
What is the problem?....just ask him.

I asked him:“NAN desu ka” ("Nan desu ka" means What is this?-what I wanted to ask was "NAAN doko desu ka"-but.......I know Japanese.....!!!!!)

He stared at me………….For him, here is a foreigner who called him with some authority and I-know-everything-well-attitude…..he was too busy; still he showed his dedication and immediately came to that foreigner to help him out………….and the foreigner is asking him……."What is this???"!!!!What is What…………………??I again asked him…….. "Nan desu ka"…………He again stared at me.I didn’t realize the problem. For me, I wanted Naan and I was asking that…….

but why is he staring at me??
He is supposed to show where the Naan is! Anyway, I did my part well. I asked him what I wanted and now it is totally his job to cater my needs. I can do only this much (and my stock of Japanese words are already over). What else can I do? I also stared at him.Our staring competition continued for a while.

anywayy i just saidd Naan~!!n gesturinn wheree with my bothh handz..hehhe... Naan……….

n afterrall he gott watt i wantedd....
heheheh~
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I .want. chocolate.

NoW!!

mmm~

2005-12-25T20:42:00.000+09:00

クリスマス・イブ Words & Music by Tatsuro Yamashita

雨は夜更け過ぎに雪へと変わるだろう Silent night, Holy night
きっと君は来ないひとりきりのクリスマス・イブ Silent night, Holy night
心深く　秘めた想い叶えられそうもない
必ず今夜なら言えそうな気がした Silent night, Holy night
まだ消え残る　君への想い夜へと降り続く
街角にはクリスマス・トゥリー銀色のきらめき Silent night, Holy night

umm.. thiss iss the best christmass songg...amongg all the Xmass songss i have everr heardd..heheh...

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i mm justt backk afterr aboutt a week...ohhh...i feel likee its moree thann a monthh i haventt touchedd ma keyboardd...haaaa...was quitee long... anywayy...examzz overr...i donno whyy theyy havee it on holidayzz ...ecspecially on weekendd...ghgaha..hatee itt...

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~DrEamz~
Their origin is unknown, and many theories have been made on how or where they come from. Most people believe that dreams express our inner-most desires, or a message from the subconscious part of your brain.

Well I don’t how much of all that is true, but sometimes dreams, I believe are sent, by the higher power.

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Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure
What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

2005-12-16T18:51:00.000+09:00

Kyun mere dil ko jala rahe hain yeh log
Zakhm bhare dil ko sata rahe hein yeh log

Usko bhulane ki kosish mein khud ko bhul gaya
Mere ghar ka pata kyun batate hein mujhe yeh log

Mekhane mein bhi hum ab hum nahi rahe
Uski kasam na jane kyoun dilate hein yeh log

Kabhi hasaate hein kabhi rulate hein yeh log
Mere khuda bade khudgarz hain tere yeh log
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all moods asidee...withh a bigg smilee...itttsss timee too partyyy..heheh...
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~16th DECEMBER~

Mama papa..hehe...happy happpy n a very haAaAapappppYyyii...
Wedding anniverseryy~....
umm..hehe...wish you a happy future full of lov n happiness...
aLl the best for many more n all the happy dayz that you spent togetherr

This is an occasion to celebrate the joys you've shared in the past and the hopes you share for the future.
To appreciate how fortunate you are to be together.
As your relationship continues to grow,
it enriches not only you,
but those of us who love you....
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I love you,
just both of you.
many times u ignore ur feelings
And feel my problems and woe At your own heart.

I need u,
just both of you
You always solve my problems

ILOVE U,

I luv you..... JUST BOTH OF YOU...
Ay Mayray Khuda Manghoo Mai Aure KeaDua!
SoO Doaoon Ki Hai Yea Aik Hi Bas DuAa,
MayRay Sar Per Rahay Saya-e-Waldane Sada
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hamari taraf sey aap ko koi pareshani na ho.... aap ki duaaon ki zarooratt haii ... aap kay sathh kii zarroratt haii.... aap keyy bagerr...yehh zindagii ...kuch nahinn..kuch nahinnn....

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~i wannt space~

2005-12-11T21:47:00.000+09:00

I want space,
I want time,
time to breathe,
time to think,
time to understand.
butt..... i cant..i just cant.
no matter how hard i try. its simply nooo use.
i want to b free,free from all the muddle of this entangled,confused and complicated world.
I want to be free from all sorrows,the grief and the fears.

Life is sooo unpredictable,so fragile...i wishh thingss were differentt forr mee.
learning from our mistakes is thee key to improving ourselves.butt i alwayz movedd with positive thinking,positive actions and positive learning.i dont find any of my past mistakes from whichh i can learn.
Inner satisfaction,ultimately provides happiness,but the problem is satisfaction.

i wishh all this was just a horrible dream.still my heart insists on continuing this struggle until the truth prevails and reality overcomes this hideous dream,or death takes away into its own realm of eternal truth and immorality.....

i donno watt i amm writing...wat i amm thinkinn....hmm..
sometimes the experience of seeing and hearing is simply unbearable and unacceptable.I want to run away fromm this mess....
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~Dark eyes~

Stuck in a haze
Those eyes…
Those dark eyes…
Dark, deep eyes…

Where resided many stories…
That once shimmered with hope…
Looking into those eyes…
Those eyes…
Those dark eyes…
Blinked with blush…
And gave him her all…
Her soul…
unleashed…
Her body…
free…
Her eyes…

Those eyes…
Those dark eyes…
That wait now…

shimmering with tears…
For the same touch…
The same words…
The long to relive the same moments…
The anguish that floats in them…
The agony that they hold…

Those eyes…
Those dark eyes…
Stories still linger…
Incomplete…
untitled…
In them…
in those eyes…

Many fears reside in them…
Of reliving the same agony…
Those eyes…
Those dark eyes…

Why do I see only darkness in them now?
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2005-12-09T17:13:00.001+09:00

芸は見せても肌は見せない。

処女は売っても魂は売らない。

芸者としてのプライドとひとりの女としての一途な愛。

取り澄ました表情と嫉妬に燃える心。

女の持つオモテとウラ、昼の顔と夜の顔を完璧に使い分け時にリアルに時に強烈に演じ分けるヒロインの生き方は、昭和初期～戦後という激動の日本史に負けないくらいのしたたかさ。

さらに置屋や花町の風情を細密に再現した背景が圧倒的な迫力を生む。

しかし、主人公・さゆりを演じたチャン・ツイィーはライバル・初桃のコン・リー、置屋の女将・桃井かおりらのアクの強さに飲み込まれ存在感がイマイチだ。

貧しい寒村から花街の置屋に売られた少女が女中暮らしのつらさに涙ぐんでいると、会長と呼ばれる男が慰めてくれる。

その日から少女は芸者になる決心をして、習い事に励む。

数年後、少女は豆葉という売れっ子芸者に認められ、さゆりという名で花街にデビューする

。この作品に物足りなさを感じるのはヒロインの生の原動力に説得力が弱かったからだ。

身売りされ奴隷同然の処遇の中、偶然出会った会長の親切に生きる希望を見出した少女が一流の芸者になって会長の座敷に出ることを目標にがんばるという設定は肯けるが、それならば彼女が必死で踊りや三味線の稽古に励む姿を見せるべきだろう。

通り一遍の練習風景ではなく、それこそマメがつぶれ血がにじむような努力や、男を惑わす視線を身に付けるため深夜まで鏡の前で繰り返すシーンを挿入すれば彼女の決意の固さもスクリーンから伝わったはずだ。
さゆりは意中の会長と再会してもその思いを積極的に伝えるでもなくそばにいるだけ。

愛でも復讐でもいい、伝説の芸者と呼ばれるくらいならヒロインは強固な信念を持っているはずなのに、青い瞳は最後までミステリアスなだけだった。

初桃のように恋に生きるでもなし、女将のようにカネにがめつくなるでもない。

結局、さゆりの上昇志向より花街の女同士の嫉妬や憎しみばかりに焦点が合った、映画の大きさに比べ物語のスケールは小さい作品になってしまった。

これならわざわざ中国人気女優を使った英語劇にするほどでもないだろう

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SAYURI　MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA
ポイント ★★*
DATE 05/11/28
THEATER ヤクルトホール
監督ﾛﾌﾞ･ﾏｰｼｬﾙナンバー 147
出演ﾁｬﾝ･ﾂｲｨｰ/渡辺謙/ﾐｼｪﾙ･ﾖｰ/ｺﾝ･ﾘｰ
批評ネタばれ注意！　結末に触れています
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2005-12-02T01:10:00.000+09:00

If Someday

If someday our paths don't meet, would our hearts do the same?
Would you remember how i look, or even remember my name?
Would i be your only, or would there be someone new?
would i still be the only one, or one of a few?
Would you still love me, and care as much as you do?
Well, not that i think of it..i know what's trueI'll always be your only,
there'll never be anyone new
Not even one let alone a few
If someday our paths don't meet,
our hearts won't do the same because my sweetheart...love isn't a game

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hey everyone!
here i am again..
with nothing too amusing to tell you...
unlike most of you...
nothing worth mentioning has happend in my life...
my daily routine is pretty simple......
hmmm..okkk...ill stopp ma selff beinng boredd n tryy too ritee outt somethinn..hmmm

okk.

7 deadly scares,likes,things,do's and donts and etc etc etc

7 things that scare me:
1. The Darknesss...
2. Being Alone
3. Losing my eyesightt...
4. Turning stupidd...lol..
5. Being Jealous
6. Losing my family n freindzz...
7. umm..being unlucky

7 things that I like most:
1. being busyy
2. all deliciouss ffooooooood.
3. bb punctual
4. Sleeping
5. Spending time with the people dear to me
6. Music-whatever kinds as long its pleasing to my earz
7.CHOCOLATE in any forms. Cookies,cakes,drinks etc etc. Luv them!

7 important things in my room:
1. My bed!
2. My tablee.n.lamp
3. My PC!
4. My books n pens. markers.pins.calendar.diary..hehe..nn moree..
5. My cupboard which contains all my lovely clothes
6. my mirror! khikhikhiiii..hu..
7.ma jewelryy/makeup boxx...

7 things I can do:
1. I can movee maa tonguee leftt too rightt n rightt too leftt quitee fasterr thann normal ppl...
2.singg..
3. managee timee
4. laughh n dancee
5. usee moneyy wiselyy..lol
6. Walk
7. Run
heheh...huh

7 things I say the most:
1. hi~
2. hHhhahHHHAhhah~ usssSsSOOooo~~ hahah!!!
3. eeeeeeeeeee....unneeeeeeeeee...eeeEEEeeEennnnNn!!
4. naHH~!!
5.意味わかんない～！
6. OOIIIIっ！！
7. .Y ou wait until i see you! I'll hit you den u noe!!....(tu ther zaraa!!!..lol)

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Do something for God..sorryy...prayyy nn askk forgiveness forr maa selff offcoursee...
2. Travelling around the world
3. Get married and have children
4. Make sure my parents are well provided for
5. Live happily for whatever comes my way....nn thiss needss quitee a lott ovv patiencee...
6. bee kindd too everyonee...thoughh i alreadyy amm..
7. hmm...seizee the dayy..

lookinn forwardd forr a niiiiiiiiicee weekendd....
Cheerz!!